that could be my 6-word memoir for April 09. i long for June to arrive. or if that can’t come quick enough, i wish that May would be here instead.

life at work has been increasingly, well, challenging… socially. i’ve always found that work itself, whatever it may be, is ALWAYS less challenging than people. and when people of different backgrounds, culture, and ethos come together, you can get quite a lot of awkward tensions.

there’s also the constant frustration of ‘demonstrating’ progress and work that is not willingly shared by others, the lack of transparency, the lack of consistency in shared knowledge, etc. this frustration is intensified in the current climate of job-cuts and everyone else trying to prove their worth…

that aside, i am still trying to find other career opportunities, with little luck or options for further exploration. or if there were, it isn’t certain if i stood much of a chance. i keep sending the applications, hoping for a real contact, the prospects of a face-to-face conversation of possibilities… but perhaps there’s just something i am not doing quite right… and then there’re still distant-learning lessons and exams still to be completed…

all such madness in April and in May… but mostly in April and the unwritten obligations are making me long for June to arrive sooner… hoping that life would regain some ‘normalcy’ and am looking forward to a real vacation someday during which i don’t have to worry about work, obligations, and simply enjoy a few days of my insignficant existence…