run through my wee head every day… i wonder how my brain cells cope with all of that. poor tiny little things. i ‘fry’them up too much — simply day-dreaming and then panick to get what i ought to be doing done before deadline. i never used to be so terrible in my procrastinations… but i am truly getting worse with ‘age’… opps.
i’ve been shelving aside plans for a little bit of fun and an excuse to learning more scripty codes until the bunch of us at 100-acre-wood (pretty much our virtual playground) decides what to do with our server hosting… which explains why i’ve not yet drop a proper entry on the Banoffi-pie i’d promised — i didn’t forget about it though!
along with that, there are also fantasies of giving ‘overacuppa’a little wee tweek and polish some time… some time… sigh.
i have frustration-turned-despair thoughts about how i will manage with the relocation pretty much on my own… “surely i will manage?!” i tell myself, i did it by myself going to germany, i will manage it myself to the usa… but deep deep down in crux of my soul, i don’t know how it will all work out. let’s hope the department/school will approve of my relocation funding application…
then again… maybe i will never make it yonder across the atlantic… this waiting for the forms from the us is driving me insane… i can’t plan anything concretely until i get the visa, which will probably take another 2 weeks from receiving the papers since i’ll have to arrange for an interview… which means i can’t finalise my flights, i can’t yet advertise for another person to view my room, i can’t start searching for an apartment, i can’t do proper packing… etc.
round and round in a merry-go-round my analyses are going… why we can never always anticipate every little bug or glitch is something i consider my own mockery-making…
i was on a delirium high when i saw “half-price for blueberries” at Tesco yesterday… i brought home 600g of them blueberry-bliss… now i am contemplating what i should do with them… too many lovely recipes to choose from…

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